todd philip
07-28-2006, 10:10 PM
Last wed I woke up (at noon) I felt ok, my chest felt a little weird, and I remember having dreams that night where i could feel my heart pounding. I get up and go to the bathroom, as I am taking a pee i feel my heart pounding, finding this to be a tad odd I check my pulse, and my heart is beating crazy, its beating very fast for a second, then a second later really slow, then really fast again. Well right then and there a begin to panic, knowing that I have a very irregular heart beat. I start getting a panic attack, and my heart gets even more crazy. Never before have i Experienced anything like this before, so i head to the nearest hospital. After sitting in the waiting room for 40 mins, my heart still being crazy, they wheel me into a vacant room (the only vacant room) and start connecting all sorts of things to me. My Blood presure is 180 over 90, my heartbeats goes from 120 beats to 180 beats in a matter of seconds. I got Oxygen, Iv's in my arm, their taking EKGS of my heart, blood work, their doing everything u can think of. Welp some time pass's and they find that all my blood work is fine, and so is my heart. The doctors came to the theory that this happened from excessive aclahol drinking. I had stay in the hospital, and around midnight my heart went back to normal.
In truth I have been drinking very hard for the past few months, drinking heavy everyday. For the truth being that this year more then any I have been having moments of deperession. The main reason being that I have been alone and single for kind of a while now, and have felt hopeless at times. Theres nothing I love more then women, and also theres nothing more that can drive me crazy! :D :P
Sitting in the hospital in my own room by myself was one of the lowest moments of my entire life. Cause I had no one to be there with me, no girl to call, nothing. I prayed (the only time in my life that i have prayed) that i would die, but more then anything, not die alone. I was released from the hospital a couple days ago. I feel great, and really even when my heart was going crazy i felt fine, it was just my freakin heart.
I really dont know what the point or moral of me writing this is, if there is a point maybe its that life is more of a gift then u can ever really believe. That in the end love ones, family and friends and everyone else on this earth, is really the only important thing, and the only thing that trully matters. Cars, money, movies, and all that other stuff in the end is nothing.
In truth I have been drinking very hard for the past few months, drinking heavy everyday. For the truth being that this year more then any I have been having moments of deperession. The main reason being that I have been alone and single for kind of a while now, and have felt hopeless at times. Theres nothing I love more then women, and also theres nothing more that can drive me crazy! :D :P
Sitting in the hospital in my own room by myself was one of the lowest moments of my entire life. Cause I had no one to be there with me, no girl to call, nothing. I prayed (the only time in my life that i have prayed) that i would die, but more then anything, not die alone. I was released from the hospital a couple days ago. I feel great, and really even when my heart was going crazy i felt fine, it was just my freakin heart.
I really dont know what the point or moral of me writing this is, if there is a point maybe its that life is more of a gift then u can ever really believe. That in the end love ones, family and friends and everyone else on this earth, is really the only important thing, and the only thing that trully matters. Cars, money, movies, and all that other stuff in the end is nothing.